Title: Jump Then Fall
Pairing: Taylor/Selena, Selena/Demi
Summary: She's always been the one there for her.
Disclaimer: I don't own anyone.
She can’t see the way your eyes light up when you smile
/ / /
I sat down at my piano for the first time in a while to play a song I hardly ever play.
“She can’t see the say your eyes light when you smile
She never noticed how you stop and stare whenever she walks by and you can’t see me wanting you the way you want her
But you are everything for me.”
A lone tear splashes down on the keys, but I’ve cried so much in such a short amount of time that it doesn’t really faze me anymore.
“And I just want to show you, she don’t even know you
She’s never gonna love you like I want to
And you just see right through me but if you only knew me
We could be a beautiful, miracle, unbelievable
Instead of just invisible.”
The door to my apartment opens and closes with a thud. It only takes a few seconds until Miley appears in the doorway of my music room.
“Demi still wants to be with Selena.” Her cheeks are already red where tears have stained them, and her eyes are already puffy from previous crying.
“Selena too.” I say before pulling her into me and letting her sob into my chest.
/ / /
The first one is the worst one
When it comes to a broken heart
I cradled Miley close to my chest, as I gently rocked us back and forth while rubbing her back. They always say the first one is the worst one but we’ve both had previous broken hearts already. This one tops them all, and I don’t know if either of us is going to be able to walk away without a scar this time.
There’s no sleep tonight. Our tears keep us up, and the pain in our chests is too great to just simple, “sleep off” like bad chest pain is. Even though Miley’s in my arms now, I can still feel her in them from the time she let me cuddle next to her. It causes me to catch my breath, and a few tears stain my cheeks.
/ / /
Every night you cry yourself to sleep
Thinking: “Why did this happen to me?”
Why does every moment have to be so hard?
I wake with a jolt when the image of Selena hovering over top of me, so close I could nearly taste her breath, suddenly flashed through my mind. I want to scream out in frustration, and cry more, but I just can’t. My voice is already hoarse from too much crying as it is, and I don’t have any more tears to cry tonight.
Miley left early this morning, saying she had a photo shoot to go to, causing me to be alone to dwell by myself.
I sigh before flinging back the covers, and slip into shoes and a coat, before heading out my front door.
/ / /
I should’ve never let her go. Should’ve told her as soon as I found out what I was feeling. But it’s my own fault for only feeling and not really showing it. I just don’t know why every moment has to be so hard without her.
/ / /
Cause you’re everywhere to me
And when I close my eyes it’s you I see
I thought a walk around the block would help clear my head of her, but I was so wrong. She seems to be everywhere I go. Even with my hands stuffed in my pockets and eyes glued to the ground I see the shinning billboards for Wizards. And if it’s not Wizards it’s her promoting Neutrogena. It doesn’t even help if I close my eyes, because that’s even worse. I get clear images of her beautiful smiling face then. A face that’s now reserved for Demi.
A light sprinkle begins to fall down on me and I slightly gasp at the sudden cold. My gasp reminds me of the time I shoved ice cubes down her shirt. She made the same noise as she tried to pull her shirt back to make them fall out. Even breathing makes me think of her! This is just crazy. I walk past a liquor store, and I took into great deal the thought of drinking a few bottles of beer to clear my head. As I was going to dismiss the idea another image of her flashed through my head, and this time I didn’t waste time in ducking into the store and buying the closet 6 pack of beer.
/ / /
It’s a quarter after one, I’m a little drunk
And I need you now
It’s gotta be well past one, actually I don’t even care; I’m beginning to feel the effects of the alcohol taking effect on me. I didn’t even wait to get home to start drinking; I drank them on the way home, which was incredible stupid cause I’m now tripping over every little thing on the sidewalk.
There was a small crack in the sidewalk and I didn’t see it until I already tripped over it and was now staring down at it as it was next to my feet. I groaned before pulling my phone out. I know I said I wouldn’t call her, but I’ve lost control and I need her now.
“Taylor? It’s a quarter after 1!”
“I knows. I’m a little drunk and I need you now.” I managed to say in a semi sober voice.
“You’re drunk? Where are you?” I groan again as I push myself onto my back. I can’t see a sign, all I see is the black sky, and the small droplets of rain once they fall into the light.
“I onno. The sidewalk.” She sighs, and I know that sigh. She’s frustrated.
“I’m sorry Sel, I’ll call Miley.” I pulled the phone away from my ear to look for the end button when I hear her frantic no’s.
“I don’t wanna bother you. I’m fine; I think I’m close to home anyways.” I brush away some of my wet curls that were sticking to my face.
“You’re not a bother. I’ll be there soon.” A funny smile crossed my face, and I’m more than sure it’s from the alcohol.
“Ok. Stay right there.” The phone goes dead in my hand before I shove it back into my jeans.
I roll onto my hands and knees before pushing myself up some I’m standing again. I don’t make it much further until I’m back on the ground. I guess my legs were a lot number than I thought and they seemed to not want to corporate. I’m glad that the only I have to worry about tripping over is the cracks in the sidewalk. Although I’m sure I wouldn’t have drank any if there was people around.
/ / /
It wasn’t long before piercing lights cut through the darkness and shined at me from my spot on the ground. I was just about to go to sleep when I heard Selena’s calls. At first I thought I was going crazy, but then I felt her bending down next to me.
“Taylor? Taylor can you hear me?” I groaned and squinted up at her.
“Sel? What are you doing here? You’re supposed to be with Demi.” She sighed before flinging one of my arms over her shoulders and wrapping her other arm around my waist.
“You need me now.” I barely manage to look at her stern face before I’m nearly thrown into the car. I don’t know how, but I got inside and sat in it the right way all by myself.
“I’m sorry. I told you I would call Miley.” There’s that sigh again, and nothing was said for the rest of the ride.
/ / /
She managed to get me inside without much help form me, which kinda surprised me. She doesn’t look that strong.
“You can let me go now. Thank you for driving me.” she let my arm around her shoulders fall back to my side and I took this time to try and walk up my stairs which only resulted in me missing the first step and completely banging my chin on the steps above it.
“Oh my…are you ok?” I looked up into those brown eyes so full of concern.
“I’m ok.” I tried at the stairs again, but this time she helped me up them.
We made it to my room where I barely made it to my bed before I collapsed down on it.
“What would ever cause you to do this?” I think she thought I was asleep when she said this, but I wasn’t.
If you could see that I’m the one who understands you
Been here all along so why can’t you see
You belong with me
“She belongs with me.” I say to myself, my eyes still closed with the upper half of my body laying on the bed and the lower half resting on the ground. Her movements still.
“Wh-what did you say?”
“She belongs with me.” I say a little louder. With one big heave she manages to get me fully on the bed, but somehow I grabbed onto her and brought her up with me.
“Who?” she asks once she realizes that I’m not moving, and she’s stuck there for the time being.
“I’m in love with her.” My voice is slightly muffled by my pillow that my face is pressed in.
“Who?” I move my head enough so one eye pokes out and opens to see her curious face.
“Wh-why does she belong with you?”
“I’ve been here all along, and Demi will never love her like I do.” The last thing I’m aware of is Selena shifting us so my arm is draped across her shoulders, and her head is resting on my chest.